Location: Fells Point
"Last Thursday I cried. I started thinking about my friend Karyn. She committed suicide. Umm.. it's alot going on right now. Tonight I was actually suppose to submit something to this magazine for this documentary. Somethings I try to ignore. You gotta like, deal with it. There's a lot of reasons why I cried. An accumulation of things. Stress. Not being happy. Wanting to give up. I'm not suicidal but of course we think of, "What if this was all over right now?" I could be in heaven right now and not have to deal with none of this bullshit (laughs). Foreal. That's what I think sometimes. But i'm not THAT unhappy with my life and self that I would wanna commit suicide. But like I said, my spirit is like.. Imagine a baby is in a mommy's tummy, kicking and screaming. Ready to come out. Ready to come out. My spirit is like "let me outta here." I'm ready to get outta here. You asked me earlier was I happy. I'm not happy right now. I do have happy moments. And I'm in an uncomfortable place. But i'm making my way. But I cried. it was like growing pains. My spirit was bleeding. It wasn't anything specific. It was just a cry. I felt better afterwards. I went to sleep (laughs). One of those silent cries. Those are the most excruciating ones. It's the soft little silent ones that you don't want anyone to hear. But I keep it moving."
Location: Chesterfield Ave
"I don't regret much. A lot of mistakes that I made actually saved my life. Like, me getting the times mixed up with my mans going to holla at him, actually had me going up the hill to hear the gunshots that killed him. I seen him down the hill on Luzerne and Monument. I hadn't seen him in a while. Since I was like 12. I told him I asked his mother about him and all that. He told me come holla at him around 8:30 because he had to handle some business. But I went up there, I shouldn't have been going up there. It was before 8:30 and I heard the shots. That happened when I was like 18."
Location: Northeast Baltimore
"My biggest fear is dying and accomplishing absolutely nothing. Just dying before I could say i actually had a purpose. Before I can tell the world there was some purpose to me and why I was actually here. If I die before I can give the people that care about me and want me to succeed any proof of success or victory.. If I die before then.. *sigh*. I dream about it. It sucks. I don't want to leave this earth without leaving my son with nothing. That's the worst thing I could think of."